#52DaysOfConsecration Week Eight Synopsis
God’s goodness is based on His nature, not our worthiness.”
Before I get into this week’s synopsis, I want to thank each and every one of you for joining me on this #52DaysOfConsecration challenge, and for allowing me to share my story and my journey with you all. I have so enjoyed this process and the discipline of this challenge and a special thanks to Amber Riley for inspiring me to get involved in the first place. Thanks again.
Pride comes in many different forms: Arrogance, Haughtiness, and Entitlement are just a few of them. Between this week and last week, I had to face an ugly truth about the latter. Prior to being offered my position at the Post, during the interview process, I carried a customized binder that I created with me to each interview that I had. It contained work samples from articles that I had had published over the years, my resume, stats, and my 5-year plan. The creation of it was truly a God idea, and I found that I relied on it heavily when I was first starting out. I compared it to the character in Charlie Brown, “Linus’ blanket.” I kept it close because somehow it gave me comfort. In a similar way, I’ve begun to observe that the person who was previously in my position, was the “Linus blanket” for the department in which I now work. Me coming into the role that I was hired to do, in some ways seemingly disrupts what the office has grown comfortable with. Not because it’s bad, but because it’s different.
Here’s what I know, the Lord doesn’t allow us to go through things in life for no reason. There is always something that He wants to reveal, fix, and uproot in our lives in order to draw us closer to Him and walk in righteousness. Though perhaps I didn’t see it at first, this week I recognized a sense of entitlement in myself that I didn’t like. On Monday, the Lord told me that that entitlement that I felt, however slight was a form of pride. Once I was able to make more sense of what those feelings were and why I was feeling that way, I went to God in prayer and repented. I learned a long time ago that when I ask God for something like, “Lord, I want to be more humble.” He doesn’t give me the gift of humility right away, rather He gives me opportunities in which to be humble. The lesson there, is that He wants to continue to build and shape character, and in order to do that, He has to take me through a process. I have to grow through what I go through.
As I was sitting at my work station this week, I happened upon a song called, “Satisfied” by one of my favorite groups, The Walls Group that really drove all of the little lessons that I have sprinkled throughout this post home. The song gives a list of analogies and asks at the end of the chorus, “Will I be satisfied with You?”. To be all the way 100 with you, I was convicted listening to the song, because I know what my answer should be, and I know in my heart of hearts my answer is “Yes”, however there’s a line that caused me to think a little harder. It says, “If no one ever knows my name, and my gifts don’t bring me fame. If everything I have some day I lose, will I be satisfied with You?”
What I love about God is that He is STILL good, even when I’m not. In Travis Greene’s song, “Thank You for Being God” there is a lyric that says, “[Lord] You loved me too much to leave me where I was.” You see, God is fully invested in what He has deposited in each one of us to allow us not to grow in different areas of our lives. He sees our potential even when we don’t, He sees the finished work even when we can’t. I was reminded that God goes hard for us every day, and we, as His sons and daughters, owe Him the same fervor and diligence in chasing after Him.
When I grabbed hold of these truths and as God was pruning me all week, blessings in the process were easier to recognize, and as He changed my heart, He favored me in ways that I wouldn’t have even known to pray for.
At the end of the day, I want the Lord to be satisfied with me. I want Him to see me as a good investment, and make good on the gifts that He’s entrusted to me, to bring Him glory.
Check out the song reference here: